"... finally the dust settles...
... um... lets kick it up again!!..."

All has been said and done...

Cards was on the table...

No more hypocrisy... procrastination... minus the seduction.

I just feel I am really out of my own league. Too tired too even pass the ball to anyone else. Just felt like letting the ball drop and roll to where ever it pleases. I hate the fights, the animosity. Just needed the tranquility for once.

Wait... once?

I have been seeking tranquil since the moment I know I was deep in the game. I knew if I turn back, I turn back for good. Maybe I was not ready for that. Maybe I dig myself in deeper whenever I pulled myself out every time. And every time I manage...

... and I finally realize...

I love this game Goddammit!!!

... yeah yeah... put a bullet through me... then maybe I can get some peace...

j0nb