"... unconcious incompetency...

... you don't know what you don't know... "

Children Learn What They Live

By Dorothy Law Nolte, Ph.D.

If children live with criticism, they learn to condemn.

If children live with hostility, they learn to fight.

If children live with fear, they learn to be apprehensive.

If children live with pity, they learn to feel sorry for themselves.

If children live with ridicule, they learn to feel shy.

If children live with jealousy, they learn to feel envy.

If children live with shame, they learn to feel guilty.

If children live with encouragement, they learn confidence.

If children live with tolerance, they learn patience.

If children live with praise, they learn appreciation.

If children live with acceptance, they learn to love.

If children live with approval, they learn to like themselves.

If children live with recognition, they learn it is good to have a goal.

If children live with sharing, they learn generosity.

If children live with honesty, they learn truthfulness.

If children live with fairness, they learn justice.

If children live with kindness and consideration, they learn respect.

If children live with security, they learn to have faith in themselves and in those about them.

If children live with friendliness, they learn the world is a nice place in which to live.

Copyright ?1972 by Dorothy Law Nolte

Now... pick one

j0nb

"... when the damage is done...
... picking up the pieces hurts the most... "

It has only been a month. A month ephemeral bliss, short-lived just like the fireworks when it died down.

In this past month, I have...
Gained and lost a sister...
Gained a friend and lost one...
Gained a crush and lost trust...

It has only been a month, and I'm already missing it.

There is nothing much I could or could not change, for a fact that the things that had happen happened and words spoke to are spoken. I could not deny that there is room for doubt on the things that had occurred yet wondering if I had done it right.

It was really a comfortable feeling to be needed and wanted. To be welcomed and admired... and when circles ended, it turns around and bites you. You are being perceived and judged, demanded and opposed.

The fine line between right and wrong has obstruct my rationalism. I think I've done it right, but it felt so wrong. Would it had been better, if I was never in the picture in the first place?

Who cares? The glass is already broken... just sweep it up clean and move on.


j0nb

"... when things shouldn't happen..
... it will... "

It was really bad. It ate my sanity. I have let myself down. The guilt, never knew it hurt so bad.

My appearance within my current peers have caused much disaster. I ruined, I destroyed and I vanquished the stability of the common practices. In the efforts of making other people happy, I have made "other" people mad. And when you think you could please both worlds, I can't.

I have made really great friends, I have exposed myself to new things and I have made many huge mistakes in the process. Once again, another lesson deemed unnecessary.

I plead guilty for,

... being there for someone when I should not be.

... being secure and mature when it is none of my business.

... being funny and kind when it is not my job.

... being sincere and honest and not letting anyone know.

... being here...

My existence is such a pain in the ass and I totally believe, I am a drama addict.


j0nb

"... it's been awhile...
... cause it has never stopped... "

I feel wanted, and torn apart...

I feel great yet tired...

I feel loved and hated...

I feel high at the same time I'm down...

What am I contemplating about? I have taken each day as a great blessing. I had fun. I have a life. Does not even matter if its on a bad or a good side of it. Oh what the hell, it's just one of those moments when you reminisce about what you have been through and you look back at it and find it extremely surreal. The flashbacks, the peak of the moment.

Self-actualization. And I do know what I want...

A tattoo on my birthday and a bloody I-phone so I can keep my intimate contacts.. ha ha ha.

Yes... I'm predictable.

j0nb